Everyday Living

As I was sitting in my hotel room tonight I started thinking about how I needed to blog. Then my thoughts wandered to what I would write about. What should I share? What is different from the last few posts? Recently I have been thinking about how all the days are just the same thing. They aren't bad, I'm not discouraged, I'm not bored, its just that I go to work, then head to a hotel where I read, watch TV, talk on the phone, exercise, take care of things such as laundry, etc. All of these things are great and important, but at the same time they are all a part of normal everyday living.  Where's the excitement in that?

Then while at work, each day is different but the same. Now reading that, that statement doesn't make sense. Let me explain. Each day is different because we are in a new school, interacting with new people, setting up in a new area, and so on. But its the same because that pattern is what we are used to: Arriving at a school normally early in the morning, finding someone to show us where to go (sometimes they have no clue that we are even supposed to be there), set up, run the show, and then head out. Some days the students are very attentive, other days their aren't. I guess this all comes to mind because I've been talking with people recently and they have been asking me about whats been going on and all that. My first response is always "Well you know, just the same stuff." I want to elaborate but how?

 This all leads me to the reminder that I was made for adventure. I want excitement, new experiences, even sometimes challenges. And this job has and will continue to provide some of that adventure, some surprises along the way. Like today, I was pleasantly surprised by the response we were given by the students at the high school we went to today. I feel like this school said 'thank you' the most, and provided feedback to both Michelle and I, as well as the school administration. This was surprising because in the beginning it seemed like a pretty tough crowd to appeal to, but they sure jumped in to the program!

I feel like I am approaching  crossroads in my life. Just like I wrote in my last post, I have been dealing with trust a lot. Trusting God to provide and show me direction. I am thankful because I am not burned out with this job, I am confident about finishing well, but my heart is being prepared for the next step. And that next step is still a complete mystery to me. I'm ok with that only because I know that if it was God's timing then I would know where he's leading me.

 Not only am I seeking out a job for after my time with Camfel, I seeking to establish my place. I would like to find a job that is more permanent, meaning my contract is continual, not only lasting a year or so. I long to be back in a community of people, attending a church I call home. I want to be involved in the lives of people around me, serve them, love them, and be loved in return.

Even if day to day activities don't change much, I know that this is all a part of the bigger scheme of things. I am learning so much here and I desire to learn as I work with Camfel for the next two or so months.  There is more happening in my life than the everyday stuff, I just may not recognize it all right now.

So I just wrote several paragraphs of rambles. Thanks for taking the time to read and I hope it made sense to you at least somewhat. I'm excited to see what God still throws my way. He's never finished with me, and he's not finished with me on this part of my journey!